Pat's Corner
 
Wednesday, May 12th
The unexpected is what makes the life so beautiful. Even when what you get is difficult to understand, at least not seeing it coming makes you feel alive.

April 1st was the beginning of the most surprising month of my life. It was as though a light came on in the basement and the mice found refuge in its cracks and crevices. This mouse refuses to hide. In due time, I will find myself in all of the surprise. Until then, I will be out here in the open enjoying the light.

Unfortunately, I have many friends and family that have been hit with negative surprise this month. Its is a strange time for so many. Emotions are high and all seems a bit up in the air. What seemed as everyday chaos is now a bit unnerving. Odd letters arriving in mailboxes, strange phone calls, peculiar confrontations in person and unseasonable weather have all been factors in these past few weeks.

I have had incredible conversations that have changed my life forever. I have been kind and cruel. I have been calm and as tense as I have ever been. My lows and highs are of the same reasons and sleep has been a passing stranger that only stops when I have no time for the visit. Why? Who cares. This is living. Supporting and be supported, listening and being heard, these things are what I am alive for. It is a true celebration of life.

Do children kick ass or what? They are interesting because they are interested. They are beautiful because they see beauty. They are joyful and they provide much joy. They are completely affected by the adults in their lives. We can change a child's life with one single act. An act of kindness can be forever impactful. An act of selfishness can be so memorable. An act of childishness can stunt growth. We owe these children everything we have, love!

On a more Train note, we have had such great success recently recording our song, Ordinary, with a producer names Don Gilmore. He is a great guy with lots of talent. He is from Seattle originally. The song is pretty rock and we love it. It is exciting. It's inspiration was Spiderman 2 and the song will be attached to the movie on a couple of levels.

Well, an evening of early to bed to stare at the ceiling awaits me. So, I am off.

My mother always said, "It will all work out". Simple truth was her gift.
Peace out!

Pat


Tuesday, April 20th
Do we all get what we deserve? Someone asked me that yesterday. Wow! That is a big question. How would I know? I suppose that I do count on there being a "Justice of the Universe." I have always felt that you have to pay for everything at some point. Maybe it was paid for up front as a child. Maybe the gifts in the future even out the pain of now or yesterday. Maybe each day is a battle of good and bad internally.

Anyone that I would like to get to know has to go through a bit of question, answer with me. I'm sure we all have our version of the "interview". This has no gender boundary. Anyone that I find interesting has to at some point tell me what he or she finds to be their own most valuable characteristic. What is it that you value the most about yourself and therefore demand to have it in return? Morals? Honesty? Discipline? Great work ethic? Great listening skills? Compassion? Whatever it is, tells a lot about that person, in my opinion.

A couple of weeks ago, I went to a veterans hospital in DC. I met men that have served in the armed service on our behalf and come home from Iraq missing body parts and parts of their souls. Do we get what we deserve? Did these men deserve that? I doubt it. I do know that these men value the simplest things in life now. They treasure life, family, friends and good food. God is a large part of these men now. Faith is eternal. I respect and honor these and all men across the world that have the courage to enter war. War is hell. I wish it could end forever. I wish that this sweet gift of life could soon be a universal victory for everyone.

Today, I am out at sea, unafraid of not returning to safety. I am at ease with the dark sky and the movement of the waves. I am counting stars instead of feeling lonely. I am embracing the adventure instead of fearing the unknown. Today, I am a clear pool of cool water that has become a body of sea for all to swim in. I am ready for the next stage of this life. My skin has been shed. My soul is intact. My heart is aware and my mind is focused on who I want to be. When I feel this way, I am grateful to the "Justice of the Universe." Do I deserve this? I must. I hope I do. I want to deserve it. I am ready to let myself deserve it.

Humor, pizza, jazz and sushi are all my friends, right now. Swedish fish are being kind as well as super hot tamales and any kind of breakfast. I wonder what good I might do for others sometimes. I am striving to be a solid human being. I have very high expectations of myself, therefore I expect much from others. I have music. I am so fortunate. I have friends. I am blessed. I have family. I have a sense of belonging. I have my self. I am strong. I have come to life!


Thursday, January 16th
"Monahan wins Racquetball Match". This was the headline on the piece of paper I found at court number three. Weeks prior to my playing racquetball on Monday, I played a friend of mine named Larry. Larry is a retired electrician who lives to kick my ass in everything we do. Golf, volleyball, racquetball, it doesn't matter. The fact is, he is a great guy and an exceptional athlete. The thing that I know about Larry is that if I win, he throws out the "I'm old" excuse. When he wins, he tells me that an old guy just whooped my be-hind. OK, so this is what followed the headline, "Pat Monahan, lead singer for Grammy winning group 'Train' managed to eke out a victory over Larry Wood, 15-13, during a recent match at Nautilus (a gym we go to). Woods' a 65 year old, overweight, balding opponent with a bad knee, managed to hold on despite experiencing severe pain. Pat stated that he knew he had him when his oxygen bottle (Woods') ran out. Monahan is hoping to challenge Woods' father in the near future.²

Now when I won that game 15-13, I was tired, sweaty and very fulfilled. The unfortunate thing about winning is that he will always get the upper hand. He is like a cat, fox, tiger all wrapped up into a retired electrician. "Damn it, that Larry." I love that guy. He's a great person and funnier than I'll ever be.

I have been making very good use of my time lately. It snows in PA, so I ski. I play volleyball, racquetball, crush my tailbone while sled riding and I write. Not just that, but this tour that is upon us is really taking some time getting reacquainted with old material. I have been listening to so much jazz that I think I am thirty years older in my soul. Chet Baker is my hero. Ella baby, no one can touch you. Stan Getz, Milt Jackson, you boys own my heart. If I could ever move people or just one person as these folks move me, I would be at peace. What a feeling. God does exist! Can you hear those sounds that stir your deepest rivers, those moods that shift your wind? Wow!

Hello Atlanta! We are just days away from a brand new experience. Johnny Colt was talking to Scott and Jimmy and me about this a few months ago and now that it is so close, I can't wait another minute. I plan on seeing some friends that I haven't seen in awhile and I plan on having the time of my life for three weeks and then to LA for the Grammy's. Heeee Hawww!!!

I will leave you with a quote that a friend sent me recently from SHOITSU - "Plunge boldly into the beyond, then be free wherever you are."

Pat


Thursday, January 8th
Lately, I have felt like I'm trying to fit into the jeans I wore in the twelfth grade and I just can't do it, no matter how hard I try. There are no jeans, of course. There is however a sense I have that I don't seem to fit! I have been all over the world. When I return, I hardly speak of my travels. When I travel, I leave my life behind. Once I'm in a groove at home or on the road, it stops! Then I return to the other life. I thought at first it was that the holidays had ended. The weather is cold. The trees are bare. Grocery carts seem to fly into everything from the wind and cold and sleet. Then I thought, maybe this is when life takes place. Real life! Life that takes you somewhere you've never been before. So I've packed my bags and set them by the door. Now I'm waiting for that "thing" to happen. I'm anxiously awaiting that knock. "Konk, konk, konk!" "Hello!" "Come on, we'll be late". And then we are off on our next adventure.

I don't know. Maybe I'm spoiled. I live this life that is constantly in motion. Maybe I'm not spoiled at all. It is hard work. Sometimes harder than other times. Nonetheless, it takes a very different kind of person to be a traveling musician or a traveling anything.

I've been writing some lately. Some of the melodies that have shown up are voluptuous and others are skinny and pale. I love them all. I get to fall in love when melody comes. I get to fill myself with that warm glance back and forth between two people that have just met and they both see the same beauty in one another. It's like magic. "Yeah, I'm spoiled".

Enough about my "feelings" already. I read Jimmy's notes from the road and I was very inspired by what he wrote. What a great thing he did. He's a good man. That may be the void. That may be the wonder of it all. To be for someone a moment to be thankful for. What a gift to give. I don't spend nearly enough time giving. I think about it and then all of the every day nonsense takes over.

I love music again. I spent some time being overly connected to it. I am very competitive by nature. Good and bad, I suppose. I have recently remembered what really amazing art is in music. From Biggy Smalls to Chet Baker, I have heard brilliance. I can actually hear again. I can appreciate what they do and I can do that without thinking that if they are great, I can't be. I can hear the subtly of the drummers and the delicate phrasing of vocalists. I can be in the studio with them or on stage. Imagination! That is what it¹s brought back to me. A movie can't do that. A DVD is a DVD, a song is a life, a dance, a memory, a tear, a night that you hope will never end, a night that you wish never happened.

Thanks for listening to me go off. I just needed to remember. Where I fit.
I remember now.

Pat


Thursday, December 11th
It is December 10 here in Australia. Things have been going remarkably well. I am really enjoying the company of LIVE. They are solid guys and, well, they come from PA so they have that immediate cool just from that.

The shows have been a great deal of fun. Some of them have been bests for us. We have done a whole lotta shows, but when it clicks, it is seriously clicking. Brandon, Johnny and Tony are raising the bar for Scott, Jimmy and me. I love that. We are bringing our A game every night and, it feels great. There have been a couple shows that I was a bit off but, these guys seemed to forgive me right away. That's what friends do I guess.

While we were in Sydney, we got the incredible news about being nominated for two Grammys. I must confess that I was entirely surprised. I certainly didn't expect anything like that but, that goes to show you how much I know about the world of music and awards. I will say that it is and always will be an honor to be recognized by the Grammy voters as a band of quality. That feels just like you think it might feel....GREAT!!

With all of this, I do have a bit of a dark spot in me at the moment. I can't define it as I wish I could, but I'm sure that it has to do with being far from home and with the holidays soon at hand, it's a bit lonely when you're away. I'm sure to be over this feeling eventually. The snow would probably help a bit. I'm told that some parts of the East Coast have been hit hard. I'll bet it was a huge pain as well as a thrill. All those children out there must have been fired up. I can't wait to sled ride and ski and snowboard. Some of the crew guys are already planning skiing trips. Very smart!

Now back to Australia for a moment. Our visit to Perth was very nice. We had a restaurant disaster but, Perth was beautiful. The crowd at the show was great and the people were very kind. We then moved on to Sydney for six days. We played four shows, two in Sydney, one in Canberra, and one in Newcastle. They were all a lot of fun. Canberra was a favorite for me. I was very comfortable that day. That says a lot. I still struggle with feeling comfortable being myself on stage. I think that being in a country other than America can add to my stage issues. Being in front of a crowd that is there to see TRAIN makes it easier. I know that I am surrounded by friends then.

The weather in Sydney has been on and off. Unseasonal cloudiness and rain has been a factor but, it didn't hinder the amazing views of the Opera House and everything around it. It is quite lovely. The Aussies are gearing up to have barbeque Christmases and that blows my mind. They love it. I suppose if I lived in Australia I would love it as well....the great fish, the pudding, the turkey, it all sounds wonderful. I will on the other hand be in the snow surrounded by familiar faces and a whole bunch of lovely gifts. I better be surrounded by a lot of lovely gifts.

We are in Brisbane tonight. The Australians have nicknamed it Briz-Vegas and Briz-neyland.....funny, right? I love the Briz-neland one. We will be in front of around 7000 people tonight. That is awesome. That one hour on stage is what brings me around every day. Tonight....I rock!

I hope you are all doing well. Come see us in Atlanta, Chicago and San Francisco, k? Thanks for checking in and for making "When I Look To The Sky" what looks to be a very popular song at the moment. The radio stations around the US have been getting your calls and they love that. Thanks! I love it too.

Pat


Wednesday, December 3rd
Thanksgiving in Pennsylvania was really beautiful this year. The temperature was in the 50's and it didn't rain or snow. I was around most of my family this year. Last year in California, I was with a bunch of great friends. It is nice to be able to mix it up like that. Home seems to be the best place for the holidays, but if you ever get the opportunity to go somewhere else, I recommend you give it at least one chance. I did decide to run the Thanksgiving 10K. Therefore I am a BAD ass, right? I mean, at least I did it. I finished 2nd in my age group with a time of 39 minutes and 5 seconds. The fourth mile seemed to be about ten miles long. The winner came in at around 32 minutes. Holy Monkey!! I dragged around the house as I cooked turkey and stuffing and some other things. It was a very relaxing and filling day. I hope yours was as well.

I'm still coming down from being on the Howard Stern Show. It was so much fun. I'm looking forward to seeing some of the shows that we were on and I can't wait to do the other shows in December with the entire band. I'm told that When I Look To The Sky is doing extremely well on radio stations all over the US. Many other countries should start to play the song very soon.

Speaking of other countries, we arrived in Australia today. After about 33 hours of travel, I will end up in Perth this afternoon. I'm on a plane right now that left Sydney and surprisingly enough, I don't feel like ripping all of my hair out...yet. It was great seeing everyone as we all met up in the Los Angeles airport (LAX). Its always nice to have a bit of a break from one another. That way when we get back to work, we're all excited all over again. It does take a minute to warm up to the whole thing though. It will be a few shows 'til we're really killin' it. Then again, some first shows are the great ones. Who knows? We're out. We're in Australia. We're playing music every night. What else could we ask for? Good question. Christmas list will be on the next post. Ho ho ho!!!

Have you ever taken a minute away from your thoughts and witnessed the random connections going on around you? I saw an amazing listener today on the plane. He actually listened to a stranger as though he was completely riveted. That is a gift. I bet she felt great talking with him. I would love to be better at listening. I wish that one day a week I could devote that time to others. No self absorbed nonsense. No feeling sorry for myself. Just opening my mind to another's life. Taking it in, taking it all in, like a slow drain would take in bath water. And at the end, leaving someone, or many with a feeling of peace. You know that feeling of getting the chance to yell at someone and then feeling so much better so you can forgive them? That is a great feeling.

We'll be in Oz for two weeks, so I plan on seeing some familiar Australian faces. I'm looking forward to playing shows with Live, too. I like that band. They are from York, PA I'm told, Amish country.

All is well and we're getting ready to play some very old, yet familiar songs next year during our club run. Its exciting for us. We may miss some of the songs that you want to hear, but we plan on really digging deep into the past. I hope we can play them properly. Even if we don't, it will be such a rush to play them at all.

Take care. I'll be talking to you shortly.

Pat


Tuesday, November 25th
Last week was exhausting and fulfilling. I couldn't believe how exciting and packed with Train fans the Carson Daly Show was. Thanks for showing up. I saw some very familiar faces there and at the other shows in NYC. You all looked great and you were so enthusiastic. Train fans are so ----- Kick Ass! The weather was beautiful. I had a no time at all to take advantage of the fact that it was 60 degrees F in NYC in November, but just to walk from hotel to deli and things like that were enough to feel great.

The highlight of my week was Thursday doing the Howard Stern show. I love that guy and everybody else at that place. They are so good to me. I feel like I'm hanging out with old friends when I go there. I loved talking to Howard on and off air. I can't say enough about how grateful I am to have been invited on his show. I have been a fan of his for almost 15 years, when I first heard him and saw him on TV when I lived in Los Angeles. I can't wait to be invited back. Have I stroked him enough? No! He was very down to earth, very polite, extremely insightful, cool, funny and I hope to some how hang out with him many times in the future. There! That's enough now. Right?

I really missed Scot and Jimmy while I was in LA and NYC. I did have Brandon though and I love hanging with him. He has become a really good friend. He did a magnificent job this past week (Thanks Brutha!) On Sunday I will see the rest of the guys as we head to Australia. The flight, I NO love. The summer, I YES love! It will always amaze me that I can get from one side of the earth to the other in less than 24 hours. How does that work? Maybe I don't really need to understand everything. Maybe its alright to just sit back on occasion and let someone else fly the plane. Flying can suck the life out of you though. You can't sleep. Then you arrive and can't sleep. Then you have been up for 40 hours and it time to go to bed for the rest of the Australia and I get a second, third or fourth wind and again, I can't sleep uush!

There were a couple of new songs that Brandon and I performed this week. We did "Signed Sealed Delivered (I'm Yours)" by Stevie Wonder on Carson Daly. We also recorded "What Child Is This" at Sony Studios. We just wanted to have some fun while I was doing a bunch of radio stuff there. It was a lot of fun to be busy with music. That's why I can't wait to do our 3 city tour in January / February. There are so many songs that we haven't played for so long. I wonder if we'll remember them. We'll have to rehearse, I guess. Oh wait, I forgot to mention the 3 city tour, didn't I? Well here's the deal; we plan to play Atlanta, Chicago and San Francisco this winter. Starting the 3rd week of January. We are going to play 5 nights in each of these cities. We are going to play places that we haven't been to in a long, long time. The venues will be Smith's Old Bar in Atlanta, Schuba's in Chicago and Cafe De Nord in San Francisco. There will be a more formal notice on the site at some point.

To end, I would like to say that I plan on having a most wonderful Thanksgiving. For some reason this one seems to be really special. I have so much to be thankful for. I am almost constantly surrounded by the most extraordinary people. My band, friends, family, producer, engineers, managers, record company folks, attorneys, business managers, publishers and the most amazing fans have been so good to me over the years. I hope that I can bring each of you even a part of the joy that you have brought to me. I am very lucky to have you all in my life and I hope that you have a beautiful Thanksgiving. I'll be thinking of you with fondness and admiration.

Pat


Wednesday, November 19th
New York in November is like a walk inside of your favorite friend’s house. It has that familiar feeling from when you celebrated graduations and Christmas together. Plus - the food in NYC is a lot better than any friend of mine can make. After three beautiful days in L.A., I have made my way to the east coast, but not before having some of my life’s most memorable moments. I performed with Brandon Bush on a Christmas special that was based more on adoption of children than it was on the holidays. I was in the company of Gwen Stefani, Amy Grant, Vince Gill, Mary J. Blige, Enrique Iglesias and some amazing parents and children that have found each other through all of the unpleasantries that CNN seems to show us. It was a warm and fulfilling evening that lifted my spirit and gave me that holiday twinkle.

Two days after that, I was in the presence of some of R&B and Rock’s most incredible musicians. I shared the stage with Al Green, Don Was, Billy Preston, DMC (Run DMC), Sam Moore (Sam and Dave), Mary J. Blige, Joss Stone, Hall & Oates, Bonnie Raitt, Michael McDonald (of the Doobie Brothers), Musiq, Ziggy Marley, Macy Gray, Teeny Hodges, Narada Michael Walden, Ricky Fante, Darius Rucker and Brian McKnight. This was for an Al Green Special that I was asked to sing on. I sang a song of his called “I Gotta Be More,” (fitting for where my heart and head are right now.) I also sang, “Let’s Stay Together” with Michael McDonald and DMC. Holy Moly! It was fun! Fun? It was unbelievable! I felt so blessed and fortunate to be with them.

I spent some real quality time talking with Sam Moore from Sam and Dave (I’m A Soul Man, Hold On! I’m Comin’!, I Thank You!) What an incredible person. I hope to have half of that spirit and love in my eyes when I am his age. Good for you Sam! I hardly know ya, and I already love ya!

Before I get into all kinds of other descriptions of why my life kicks ass I would just like to say that I am so grateful to all of you for your emails and letters regarding so many issues. From simple things to deeply moving experiences that you share with me. Returning these letters and emails is a very difficult task, but I read everything and appreciate them all. You have all touched my life every bit as much as I have yours, so thank you again.

So, back to New York. I had an amazing Hot Turkey sandwich with mashed potatoes and broccoli Tuesday when I got into town. Oh my! It was so good. I cannot wait to cook Thanksgiving dinner. Wait! I can’t wait to eat Thanksgiving dinner! I may run a 10K on Thanksgiving morning. I may not. If I do, I am a bad ass. If I don’t, I am a bad ass. Oh well, we’ll see what excuses I come up with.

There are some great things that are to finish my week here before I go home and then meet up with the other fellas in Australia. I will write next week to talk about those experiences. Also, Jimmy has been writing a bunch of great tunes lately and Brandon and I put a little ditty together the other day too, so in January, maybe the shows will have some new songs. Or not! Just kidding…..

Well, I am off to sleep. I hope I can sleep. Sometimes the Gods of sleep miss me all together with that sleepy dust. Then they give me a double dose for the next five days.

It was great talking to you. I can’t wait to see some of your familiar faces soon.

Pat


Tuesday, November 11th
OK, here I go! This is my first time writing to everyone via the web site. To be honest, I have always felt like this web site is for TRAIN fans, but I want to open up the lines with a weekly letter of my own.

For much of this year, I have tried to avoid reading things about TRAIN, whether it was on the web site or newspapers or magazines, etc... I guess that I am learning that being a part of an art form like music and performance can be heart breaking as well as heart warming. I have always hoped that somehow the music that I contributed to would be loved and embraced by ALL. Well, that is not real life. It is, however, a feeling that I can't seem to escape. So, I choose to keep creating and not get too caught up in listening and reading the critiques of what we do. I have, with this, missed an opportunity to keep in touch with all of you.

There are so many things that have happened within the band family this year. About a year ago, when Rob decided to leave the band, we had to decide how to approach it. We looked at this as an opportunity, not a problem. The enthusiasm was at an all time high. We were ready to "ROCK" more than ever. We got a guitar player (Tony L.) to fill in on stage. We then asked Brandon Bush to play piano for us. These guys turned up the talent and the excitement and we were off.

Into touring for six months or so, we were forced to make a decision that would change us musically and personally. We chose to replace Charlie on bass. We had been a band for nine years and within nine months we went from five to three original members. Scary! This was a big change for all of us. "They" say that with change , good or bad, there is growth. I don't know who "they" are, but I do agree.

Now with this change, we asked Brendan O'Brien to help us out. He thought that playing with us would be a great time, but he has very little time away from making records. He did, however, suggest a good friend of his named Johnny Colt (Black Crowes). After having some conversations with Johnny, we felt like something great could come of working together. We were right. Having him with us has been very fulfilling. He is, in many ways, like "The Wolf" in Pulp Fiction. He always brings his "A" Game.

Through these changes, new TRAIN songs on the radio, a new CD, tours being booked, band members leaving, and new musicians coming in, our crew has done an amazing job. They are flawless, almost flawless that is. So, thanks to them, we sound better then ever. (If you jackasses are reading this, don't get too cocky. I'm watching you all like a hawk.)

It is now November 11, 2003 and I am soon to be on my way to Los Angeles and New York with Brandon to perform "When I Look To The Sky" on TV and radio. We, as a band, decided to perform the song with just piano and vocal during November. In December, we will be performing the song on other TV shows as an entire band. W I L T T S sounds really good to us both ways, so we wanted to mix it up a bit to make it more fun and interesting for us.

I do plan on writing in more often. There are some exciting things coming up for us in November and December as well as in the New Year. They will be announced on the site soon, so keep checking in or you'll miss something.

Thanks for reading my note and hanging with us for all these years. I am happier personally than I have ever been with TRAIN as a band and as a group of friends. Also, thank you for bringing "When I Look To The Sky" to life on the radio. A lot of people are calling their local radio stations about this song and I am assuming that it's you.

See you all soon,
Pat Monahan